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I'll be posting something soon. I am making it right now and it should be up by Saturday or Sunday. Its just a small art piece but it should be a good one ^^ 
Its been a while since I last updated, and I am still trying to get "How I found myself part 4" off the ground to share with everyone. I don't expect any response from my journals but when someone does ask a question like a few people recently it does make me smile ^^ and I am willing to answer the questions people have. Like for example Q: Do you identify as female now? A: yes I do identify as female now and am I do enjoy being a girl.  I am also in the process to get my name and gender changed. I am signing documents right now to actually get my named changed from my birth given name. Its just going to be a pain for the next 6 to 8 weeks to let these documents go through >.> but my first name will legally be changed to Casey or Amelia depending on what I decide one or the other will by my first name and the other will be my middle name hehe XD

As the title says I have been going through some growing pains since I have been on HRT for a few months. My body has been acting weird lately with some soreness in certain places, but also the sex of what made me male has been diminished and I can't really sense it or feel it anymore. My hair has grown exponentially fast, (and got a cute haircut today I might add which really makes me feel and look cute to boot ^-^ ) and my brain... well my brain has been able to think more clearly taking the estrogen, only thing I miss saying is thinking of nothing because I always have something on my mind now and I can't think of nothing. And I have been crying a lot. I've gone from almost no emotion Pete, to Basket Case Casey, and I am not making that up. ;>.<; I cry so much now, sometimes I don't know why, but I just need to do it. It could be the hormones but after the roller coaster ride of spontaneous emotions I am happy and I feel much better afterwards.

After all the pains, and the trials I go through everyday, what makes me happy is actually seeing my reflection in the mirror and just seeing myself, the real self I see in me and shes trying hard everyday to come out and be more confident and enjoying who she is everyday. I never knew that waking up and being myself could feel this magnificent. I truly love myself everyday and want to live life more and more thinking of the people I love and knowing that I love myself just as much. I don't just feel excited at times to be who I am, sometimes I don't think about it. But I will say, being happy being myself and showing that to others makes me feel alive, and I don't feel like I need to put on a show anymore.   
  • Mood: Zest
  • Listening to: Undertale OST- Your Best Nightmare
  • Eating: POCKY- YUMMY ^-^


Panda Casey
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Hello I am Casey, a happy shy and energetic girl that loves to do new things and experience the joys of whatever life can bring. I love to draw and digitally get creative on Photoshop and Manga studio. I am also a huge fan of MMO'S like Final Fantasy XIV a realm reborn as well (GO TEAM LALAFELL!!!) . For those of you who may have known me before as Pete, I want to say to you all Pete is a part of the big picture of who I really am, so if your looking for him hes still here only hes now a she hehe ^^ I look forward to having a wonderful time with you all and you continue to enjoy my work. Thank you




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TiffanyToast93 Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You are cool, I don't really have anything to give, and my iPad just had a internet crash, so I'll just um.... LOLJamz 

Why? Umm.... I looked up "grim" and it popped up?
Redface5x Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2015
I hope you don't mind my asking, but is Blasted Rascals going to be updated?
panda-casey Featured By Owner Edited Oct 22, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thats a good question... Hmm... right now I am just trying to update my life @_@ and that's a project on its own, sorry. But I'll try to get back to it when I can. Until then How is your game projects going hmmm? ^_^
Redface5x Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2015
My game projects? That's a good question... Hmm... right now I am just trying to update my life @_@ and that's a project on its own, sorry. But I'll try to get back to them when I can. :P

Thanks for asking. While MAFA  is still on hold till I get the next release of Hot-LEGS out, I can say that I've made progress with Hot-LEGS. My progress may have been slow, but progress is still being made.

I guess we both just have to wait for each other. ;)
luminio Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Student Digital Artist
happy birthday, casey. here's to many more!
panda-casey Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you ^^ It means a lot for you to say this.
TheRealYuma Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
panda-casey Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you :D
TheRealYuma Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome.
moblinhunter Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Happy Birthday
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